Growing up, I always heard girls don't play video games from a few of my friends. And because all of these comments would come from people I trusted back then, six year old boys who never really interacted with any girls, it really messed with my head because my cousins who were girls would always join in for a round in Pokemon Stadium. To be fair, they never really interacted with any girls except for their mothers and grandmothers, so when it comes down to everything, they really only went with whatever their parents had told them. So, when I was thinking about my gender and how I wasn't a boy, that played a very large to me thinking that maybe I'm not a girl. So that was one of the reasons why I hid it.
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| @gaymergrl |
Over the next few years, I realized that my friends were idiots and a lot of girls I knew during that time were able to kick my ass in Pokemon. So here I was going back on the thought that video games were a boys only club. But I still pretty much denied that I was a girl for many of the other reasons. Mainly family issues and issues with religion at the time. And while I could go into details of my first girlfriend, how I figured out I was trans, and my many emotional breakdowns but I am going to skip all of that and go directly to the moment I came out to my dad. It wasn't best situation, I had to come out over on the phone due to circumstances. And all I can think off is when he said that this wasn't me, that I wasn't trans, and that he would have noticed. And then he proceeded to tell me about all of my hobbies and how they were all guy things. Which gaming was one of the big things that came up. I knew that there were going to repercussions to this but prior to that point, all of my friends and family had a fairly nice reaction to me coming out.
Those reactions never really stopped, online people have actually gone about and said some sexist and transphobic things. "Do you only play this game with your boyfriend?" "Women don't play games." "You're a lesbian? Can I watch?" "You're a fucking tranny? Burn in hell." And a lot more things that I'm sure would get me banned from many social media outlets. But you know what? Come at me. I just want you to know that I am a girl through and through and I will take you on in Smash or Overwatch or any game really, and I will kick your ass in it. Just because I'm a girl and trans has nothing to do with my ability to play a game. But moving on from that, there aren't a lot of those people anymore and I love being able to just walk into a game and play with a bunch of people awesome people. Walking into such a welcoming community of people is one of the many reasons why I feel like I can be myself.
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| "This is Me" The Greatest Showman |
Growing up, I always heard girls don't play video games from a few of my friends. And because all of these comments would come from people I trusted back then, six year old boys who never really interacted with any girls, it really messed with my head because my cousins who were girls would always join in for a round in Pokemon Stadium. To be fair, they never really interacted with any girls except for their mothers and grandmothers, so when it comes down to everything, they really only went with whatever their parents had told them. So, when I was thinking about my gender and how I wasn't a boy, that played a very large to me thinking that maybe I'm not a girl. So that was one of the reasons why I hid it.
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